Monday, October 14, 2013

The Clydesdale That Could

So I entered a mountain bike literature contest for Dirt Rag Magazine.  The following essay was submitted today and I will have to wait several weeks to see if I win.  I just really liked the idea of writing a story that someone else will read.  Of course I would love to win but for me at this point it's more about just playing the game, if that makes any sense.  The story below is slightly based off true events, but is a work of fiction.  Enjoy.


The Clydesdale That Could
Having not been an avid mountain biker for more than a few months I wanted to try and up my game by signing up for a local bike race.  Now, I have been out and seen some of the other riders gallivanting along on the courses and I could just tell that I was in better shape than them and could easily beat some, if not most, in a race.  So, I decided to put my money where my mouth is and sign up for a series of four races called Wednesday’s at Wakefield.  There were several different categories available, Junior, Beginner, Expert, Masters, and Clydesdale (200 lbs. and over).  Being the brut of a man that I am, pushing a solid 216 lbs., I thought why not, let’s give it a whirl.  So I skip the Beginner level entirely and sign up for the race in the Clydesdale category and begin my training. 
I ride the course weekly, getting better and better, faster and faster.  I am able to handle turns with lighting speed, push through climbs like my legs have been made for nothing else in the world but to ride a bike.  Having come from an athletic background, I like to think of myself as a rather fit individual.  I have participated in many types of organized sports, baseball, basketball, football and now I can add mountain biking to the list, another notch in the old sports belt.  Week after week I ride in the sweltering heat with my camelback, my mini first aid kit (learned that lesson the hard way), my Leatherman and my bike multi tool.  Let me tell you, I am prepared for anything.  If anything I am probably too prepared, come to think if it, I may even be able to ride a bit faster with less equipment strapped to my back.  Regardless, I ride all the local trails to prepare for my new racing endeavor. 
For each ride I pack the car up with all my gear, my new riding shorts, my iPod shuffle, and a much needed granola bar for my pre-workout carb load, which is really just pure sugar but I like to pretend that it helps.  I venture out into the great outdoors and ride anytime day and night for at least a good solid two hours.  Each week I begin to understand just how well I am going to do in this race series.  There is no way I can lose, I am not aiming for first place but I know without a shadow of doubt that I will finish in the top percentile.  I mean how hard can it be, it’s riding a bike?  Kids do it all day long, old folks on the boardwalks in their little beach cruisers pass by without a care in the world.  I am a man and an athlete and can conquer anything that comes my way.  As Diddy once said “can’t nobody take my pride, can’t nobody hold me down, Oh no!”
As we get closer to race day, the anticipation continues to grow and grow until I can barely contain the joy that consumes me.  I talk about the race with all my friends, coworkers, and family.  I buy a new helmet, racing gloves, and chain oil just because I can.  The night before the race, I drift off to that state of sleep one gets to when the greatest day of his life starts just as soon as the sun rises.  I know I am unstoppable and I have done everything I could do to be prepared for this race. 
The day of the race I wake up early (I mean really I barely even slept), I prepare a home cooked breakfast of bacon, eggs and a freshly squeezed glass of orange juice.  Breakfast being the most important meal of the day I want to make sure that I feed the machine that will pedal me to victory in just a few short hours.   I get to check in a bit early, I have never done this before so really I have no idea what to expect.  I ride over to the check in booth and proudly claim my spot on Team Clydesdale.  I am told by the race coordinator/volunteer/racer’s wife/whoever she is that there are 15 to 20 others registered in this same category.  Now this is exciting, that’s even more people for me to beat!  Because I am early, I ride around a bit to warm up and get the blood flowing to the stems.  I am amazed at how many people are there.  All ages, shapes, and sizes.  As we approach the start time all the different riders line up according to the category for which they signed up.  First are the Juniors, then the Beginners (female then male), next the Experts (again separated by gender), then Masters and of course the ever valiant Clydesdales.  Being a Clydesdale they assume we are slow so we are the last of all the heats to start the race.  Ha, what do they know? 
It is around this point that I start to get a little confused.  There are only six riders lined up with me.  Six!  And that includes me…  Where are the 15 others that will bow to defeat as I ride to victory?  I think that there has to be some kind of mistake, and then a few more thoughts start to process in my mind.  I am wearing a green baseball style 3/4 length sleeve shirt and of course my new riding shorts (my biking uniform).  I have my gloves, camelback and I am set.  And yet the massive Thoroughbred to my left is decked out in full racing gear.  Red racing jersey, matching red bike shorts (you know the kind, super tight, shows the goods, maybe a bit too much) and clip in pedals.  Then to my right, much of the same except dude is decked out in a completely pink one piece bib.  Pink!  I am thinking what the world is this guy wearing?  I can beat a guy wearing pink, I mean who thinks they can’t beat a guy in all pink, it’s not even a thought it’s just assumed as fact.  Now as I look around at these guys I realize that I am the only one who is not wearing actual racing clothes.  Gradually from this moment on my ego starts to slowly deflate like a kid holding a balloon with the end stretched out so it kind of screeches.  After so many weeks of confidence, doubt enters into my mind.  Now I don’t think you need to have all the best, top of the line equipment to win a bike race but it does help to look good.  I look like I just walked out of a Grateful Dead concert compared to these guys.  As this doubt starts to take hold I try and compose myself, remember my training and emit a sense of confidence.  Guys can sense this confidence, the pheromones maybe, who knows but I was pushing it out of my pores as best I could.  Now it’s just a few more seconds until the start of the race. 
BAM!!  The gun fires and we are off.  The feeling that came over me next was immediate, faster than the sound of the gun was the rest of the deflation of that balloon, more like a POP.  While I am off pedaling to my little heart’s content the five other guys take off like a freight train on a crash course to hell.  Within the first 10 seconds of the race they are gone and it’s just me and my bike.  I know right away that I am going to lose to every one of these guys.  Because we were the last heat to start there is just no chance of me ever catching someone and there is just no chance of me being able to beat anyone as I am literally the last guy on the course.  Then is occurs to me that while all the Clydesdales have to race three laps around the course, the Experts and Masters have to race four laps.  YES!  I still have a chance.  I am now at peace with the fact that I am not going to win, it’s more of a peace that was forced on me but hey I am adaptable and can accept when I am defeated.  Now my goal is to beat one of these four lappers even though they have an extra lap to do, well that was my thought anyway.  We can all dream, right?  Really I was just trying my hardest not to be the last guy to cross the finish line.  After the first lap I am feeling slightly more confident and then I hear “PASSING ON YOUR LEFT”.  Damn it, I am already being lapped.  What the hell?  So I pull over a bit and let Expert number one pass on the left.  Not to worry the Experts started a few minutes earlier than the hefty Clydesdales so again I push with one and only one thought in my mind, don’t be last place.  Please, please, please don’t be last place.  Two, three, five…eight…more people pass me.  It’s like I am a broken down car on the side of the road and everyone is in a big damn hurry to make it to Grandma’s for turkey dinner.  Everyone is passing me, it’s bad, really bad.  Then who do I see?  None other than Thoroughbred Red passes me.  Dumbfounded is the only word that comes to mind, I am only halfway through the race and one of the riders who started right next to me, passes me.  He literally is riding twice as fast as I am.  Twice.  As.  Fast…  Confidence at this point is gone, out the window, caput.  I even consider calling it quits after lap number two just to save myself the embarrassment of being last place.  But I think to myself, I am a man, a Clydesdale, push onward soldier, finish this damn race.  Then the most devastating blow of all, Mr. Pink is a blur out of my peripheral vision as he too passes me like I stopped to get off the bike and tie my shoe.  But there was no shoe tying taking place I was still pedaling my little keister off like I stole this bike. 
Regardless I push on to the finish line, at this point it’s starting to get late and there are less and less racers passing me, I think to myself, finally…  So with a total race time of 1 hour and 20 minutes I cross the finish line.  Success!!  My first mountain bike race is complete.  One small issue, there is hardly anyone at the finish line.  Where is the mass of spectators, where are the other riders waiting to congratulate the finishers?  Then the last bit of heartbreak settles in when the race officials start to pack up as soon as I cross the line.  I know what has happened but I ask the question anyway. 
“Am I the last one to cross the finish line?” 
“The very last one indeed” he responds.  Like a bug on a windshield I am crushed.  After all these weeks of training, after all these sleepless nights of absolute anticipation, I am Jack’s utter defeat.  I am dead last. 
“You know they have a beginner level where you only have to do two laps?” said the race official as I am walking with my head hung low pushing my two wheeled chariot down to the car. 
“Yeah, I saw that, may have bit off more than I could chew on this one.” I said. 

With that he responds “Better to finish last place as a Clydesdale than quit like an Ass.”  

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