Only you can change your life.

I have had something on my mind as of late and honestly it has kept me from writing. Maybe deep down I know that until I put this out there, there is nothing more important to talk about. I don't know why this got to me but it did. For the very first time, since I started writing this blog I received negative feedback from someone. I was told that I was self-centered, mainly because of what I write right here. My first thought was bewilderment because this person must have no clue what a blog is. It's about me, it's supposed to be what I think/feel/want/desire/need/dislike/fear/love, what do I know about what another person may want or need? What I write here are my thoughts and my thoughts alone. My second feeling was anger, if someone does not like what he/she reads here promptly move your mouse to the upper right hand side of your screen and click the little X because frankly I don't want or need you here if you are going to be negative. The entire point of all this to find encouragement and help from my friends and family to work towards a greater goal of better health and fitness, not listen to a bunch of negativity from someone who doesn't know what they are talking about. After the anger subsided it was replaced with enlightenment. This person was not being negative, this person is actually a fricking genius. I don't know why I didn't think of this before but being self-centered is the only way to get more healthy because literally NO ONE else can do it for you. If you don't worry about your health, then who will? Yes, your wife or husband or whoever will worry, but they cannot put in the work for you. Watch this, I will try:

"Hila, will you go out and run five miles for me?"

"Huh, for you? What do you mean?"

"I mean go out and run five miles but let me get all the benefits from it."

"Okayyyyy..." (what you can't see if Hila slapping me upside the head with a dictionary because this is absolutely ridiculous)

If you don't spend the time and energy focusing on yourself then you will never achieve your goals. No one else is going to do it for you. No one is going to get me to boot camp every day, no one is going to keep the burger and fries out of my mouth, no one is going to make me push harder in class, no one is going keep me healthy and fit. This is one thing that I must do myself. I am the only person who can be constantly vigilant about my needs. I am the only person who can make sure I achieve my goals. Others can help and influence me but ultimately this is my responsibility, it falls on no one's shoulders by my own. If someone thinks that is being self-centered then so be it, I will be self-centered all day long.